Karissa Renee Johnson
Ask me anything!
These days have been filled with:
Mumford and Sons
Hand holding
BBQ’s
Tons of Diet Coke
and Beautiful Weather.
No fucking time for Tumblr.
I want more then anything to lead a normal not so pathetic life.
Ryan took me out for mcdonald’s breakfast this morning. As we got out order and I was trying to find where he was sitting I found him at the high tables at an awkward part of the place. Sounds petty but my anxiety level was up the roof and sitting there seemed to make it worse. I gently told him I don’t want to sit here, and then he proceeded to blow up on me.
“God, you’re so fucking selfish. It’s always about you.”
He thinks I’ve let it go but I haven’t.
Another time I had to drop off a red box DVD at walgreens. I dropped him off and told him I would park on the left side of the building. As he was returning the DVD I decided to park closer so he would see me.
He then flipped out on me again,
“Why the fuck are you such a dumb bitch? You could of told me you moved”
He wouldn’t let it up for a good 30 minutes after that.
Maybe he just has extreme anger and doesn’t realize what he says in the moment. Maybe I am all of the things he says and I’m overreacting.
All I know is he has me near tears almost every other day… and makes me feel worse then I already do.
I’ve come to think of it, maybe I’m just an oversensitive person. Maybe I deserve everything that happens to me. Maybe everything I view as bad is actually good for me.
I don’t know. I just feel really messed up.
lgknreglknrelgknrelngre.
So who’s rooting for Joseph Kony in the hide and go seek world championship?
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